The Order of the Moo

* Emilee's face tells it all. Yummy, Order of the Moo. Bret is our party animal. He figured out some airplane tickets for us to Lagona. Oh I am excited!
* What a great Sunday we had today. Tom is the best Primary Teacher, the kids love him.
* Had a good talk with Kelly. She was sitting at the pool, watching the kids swim.
* The Shepherds came down tonight with chocolate cake. We had fun talking.
* The air is filled with smoke tonight, with ashes dropping out of the sky. The fires are burning everywhere.
* I am reading Feelings Buried Alive Never Die. It is making me think differently. "Whatever we choose to focus our attention on will automatically multiply in our lives."

Kelly is Pregnant!

*Kelly is Pregnant, Wonderful, Wonderful! Another dear Thompson coming to town. Kelly is so sick, I must think of her 100 times a day. Wish she would let me come out and help her. I would like to fan her sheets when she is hot and warm them with the hair drier when she is chilling. I always remember my Mom's cool hand on my forehead when I threw up. I will be glad when she get to her doctor's appointment. She is the best Baby Mom! I am praying for her.

* Had the funnest day with Kim on Friday. It was my Birthday and we had our toenails done for the 4th of July, a yummy salad, and a long over due talk. I love Kim. I love her family and her life.

* Talked to Matt tonight on the phone. He told me about a prayer circle they will have tomorrow night for him. This is truly a miracle. Tomorrow will be grand, just thinking about him.

* We are trying to get 7 horses ready to take to a sale in Monticello. Hope those wild things can calm down.

* I am struggling sleeping. Tom moves all over the bed all night.  His shoulders hurt. I rub them, but then I  can't get back to sleep. Some times I slip into Margie's room to read for awhile. Think that is where I am heading.

*I so don't want to be a worrier. That has become my current goal.

* " Live only in the moment." Breath

Blossoms in the Desert

* Tonight I have six little bodies sleeping in my house. So much life and excitement that now I can't sleep. I love them so.

* Hiked to Ensign Peak with Trudy on Friday. The ride to Salt Lake was wide. But the view was inspiring. I always learn so much from Trudy. Brigham Young took the 12 to this peak where they had the temple ordinances. It was beautiful.

* Trying to get Tom to eat good for his dang kidneys. Not an easy job!

*Attended our first Support Group in Buffdale. Tom refused to talk, or write, smile, but he was there. Matt called the next day to find out how it went. His comment was,"Come on Dad you got to chime in your shit. We got to get through this together." loved it

Sweet Margie

* This is Christmas Eve at Kimmie's House.

Mom is sporting her traditional Red Christmas Jacket. I love her.

*Little did she know what the next few months would bring her. A trip to Arizona, a move to Jamestown, cleaning out her house, a heart attack, and trying to hang on to life and her memory. As she came out of surgery she was as white as death felt like we were looking into her casket.

But she rallied and smiled and laughed again.

*I brought her home to Wallsburg. She was so confused and lost. I slept most nights with her because she would get up in the night and walk around.  One night I came into her room and she said to me."There is someone else living in this room. Look she likes the same things I do. She likes this beautiful gray basket. (But Mom you gave me that basket years ago). She likes the statue of a little girl on the beach holding up a seashell to her ear. (but Mom you gave me that little girl for Christmas years ago). She likes wooden shoes and she left some on the counter by the sink. (But Mom I left those there because I know you are Dutch and you love wooden shoes). Now look at this, as Mom opens the bathroom drawer, she even like the kind of toothpaste I like. (But Mom this is you).  We then crawled in bed and I began to explain to her about her life. Where she had lived and all about her family. She kept saying, " Oh thank you for helping me remember, don't stop tell me more." I love this mother of mine. I wonder what things she will have to endure?

I wonder the lessons that I need to learn.

"Now I can really understand what it means to say that the house

 where my mother has been is forever blessed."      Out of Africa

A New Day

* These trees remind me of Africa. They are so powerful and mighty. Something I haven't felt for a long time... powerful. For the last two months I have lost myself. I have felt so tired that part of me died. I wasn't doing the things that feed my heart, like walking, studying and praying. I must remember this lesson. Take care of yourself first and then face life.
* I woke at 5:45 and watched the sun come up. So calming.
*I walked with Linda and shared similar experiences abouot our Moms, who are both struggling. She showed me the Brigham City Temple paintings. They have warm tender figures that Michael Maughn has painted. One taken at our pond. I loved them! She asked me to come help install them. Oh does that sound delicious. Maybe Archie will be there. He so loved Brigham. I will keep my finger crossed for that lucky happening.
* We get to see Matt tonight. He looked so amazing last week.
* "Forgiveness is giving up on the prospect of a better past."